Long-distance truck driving is what my partner does, so he can be away from home for 2 to 3 weeks at a time. When he is away, I am left at home alone with our newborn plus two cats; Before our boy was born I was good with being alone in the home for long stretches of time as I am proficient in self-defense. Now things are entirely different.
I suppose it is motherly instinct, because I worry about him always. I get all these nightmarish scenarios running through my head that I just can’t seem to let go of. It has gotten so scary that I had a security service come in to set up a security plan in the house. I have every window and door alarmed, plus surveillance cameras in the front plus back of the house, automated lights and motion detection. My partner thinks I’m losing it, but he doesn’t understand the fear I have for our baby boy. What if someone broke in plus put hurt him? I couldn’t live with myself knowing I allowed that to happen through negligence.
My husband worries about our well-being plus is actively seeking a transfer to a local route, though the cash isn’t as good. However, he would be at home almost every night. I know that will help lessen some of my fears, although I will not be giving up the security plan no matter how many times a week he is here! At least, not until our kid is grown.